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Monday, March 7, 2011

On Acceptance

Now that the first quarter of 2011 is nearly over, I think I have stumbled onto what my Word of The Year is going to be.

Acceptance

This past year, from my birthday in 2010 to my upcoming birthday, has been one of personal exploration, decisions, failed (and successful) attempts, and refining of artistic visions. I tried a lot of things (submitted to magazines, taught classes, did shows), was successful with some of them, and not so much with others. But through it all, I realized that I was allowing myself to get mired in negative thinking, spending way too much time comparing myself with others, and constantly thinking that whatever I did in a particular moment was somehow just. not. enough.

Which is ridiculous.

I mean, really.

So I hit a giant 'reset' button somewhere after the holidays, and took everything back about eight hundred notches. I thought about my plans and what I really want. I'm pretty happy with what I've been doing lately, which, compared to last year, isn't all that much. I've got a couple of custom commissions going on at the moment, and I was just asked to create bridesmaid jewelry for a friend's wedding this fall. And I'm making some personal projects that aren't all in the artisan jewelry realm. I'm also exploring my interest in art history, and dipping my toes back into the waters of my medieval living history hobby.

I have no plans to submit to magazines in the near future. I didn't do Lori's recent (and OMG awesome!!) Bead Soup Blog Party, but I am planning on joining the next one. I have signed up for no spring and summer shows. I'm taking it easy. Very easy. And it's nice! I'm finding that when artistic vision and inspiration really strikes me, I'm so incredibly productive, it's almost scary.

I can see now that there are only two more years before my littlest ones are in school full time, and after that there will be MUCH more time to get involved in all these things: shows, magazines, online stuff. Right now, I am doing what comes up and what I feel led to do in the moment, and that means accepting that what happens or what I do is simply enough.

It came to me over the weekend that 2011 is all about Acceptance -- of me as a person, an artist, a mom, all my various roles. Whatever I am doing is the best I can do at the time, and it's what I am supposed to be doing, and ALL I am supposed to be doing.

I guess this means I really can't Do It All.

Do I feel the insistent pull of "Sign up for shows!Submit to a magazine!Get yourself Out There!Be Involved!!"? Of course I do. I am a goal-oriented, responsible, achieving, first-born child! It's my Job! *snicker*

But I am consciously reminding myself (pretty much daily) that the most peaceful and happiest path I can be on right now is one in which I possess and define boundaries that allow me to not feel rushed, stressed, overwhelmed, ragged at the edges, and creatively spent. I don't have to be everything to all, and I don't have to do everything to be a successful person. Sounds like comprehending that would be a no-brainer, right? I mean, duh! But it's remarkably hard for me to grasp that and integrate it.

It's all good, though. And it's going well.

Oh, and here's a shot of my latest custom order....


Fun stuff!

So, my question to you is...how are you doing with your chosen path this year?

7 comments:

Barbara Lewis said...

Congratulations, Christine, on reaching a major milestone of listening to your gut! BTW, love your beads ... all of a sudden I have a craving for a fried egg! Go figure!

Melissa Meman said...

Good for you on making some hard decisions - at least they would be for me! I love art history, too! Can't wait to see how your creativity soars :)

TesoriTrovati said...

What a great word and a wonderful assessment of it! I am working on something similar. I have set my own bar pretty high but find myself caught up time and again at moving at a pace that I can't keep up with. I need to pull back and do that which is important to me. Thank you for sharing this part of your journey and your thoughtfulness. Enjoy the day!
Erin

Fire Phoenix said...

Cute beads! And very inspirational words too. My path this year was to get my research published, and it forever seems to be just a *little* bit beyond my grasp. Still, 9 months of the year left to go right?

Pretty Things said...

I really understand how you feel, and admire you for finding your peace with it. I am still finding my way, and it's a hard row to hoe.

Gwynnie B said...

Beautifully written, Christine, and truly inspirational!!

xo
Gwynnie

Elisabeth said...

Great post! I feel the same way - wanting to do a million things and the realizing that tome is limited and I can't survive on no sleep and lots of coffee :-)

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